Another country song plays,
reminding me again of you.
Another loss made,
and I'm thinking of you.
In the night, as it spins so lonely by,
with the quiet whisper of sad longing,
I think of you.
In the heat of summer spring driving, I sigh
and think of moments shared with you.
In the sweet sticky warm night,
with the oncoming of the morning dew,
I find myself wondering of you.
It's been along time, all felt - so numb and cold.
It's been a year passing soon, a sad story told.
And somehow I try to forget, somehow I try
to say goodbye,
secretly wishing I'd see you again.
Anything to feel the passing of these numb feelings
and help let things mend.
Yet if I knew how to say sorry,
past the pride, I would.
If I knew how to make amends
like I should.
But while the coyotes howl in the distance,
and the moon sets, I'm going to try and walk on.
Ending the sweet amazing melody
of your blissful song.
Why didn't I try
to keep the flame burning.
Why didn't I give a damn
to the relationship churning.
Why did I have to kill
the best thing I've ever known,
desperately, despondently,
pleading alone.
Even a year so close later,
I struggle to find my spirit.
Despite the way that in my mind
we magically somehow yet fit.
I was so close to
the eternal flame of you.
I was so close to finding
the warmth that you knew.
I was softly wrapped with joy,
yet confused.
I was so blessed by love, yet look
at what path I choose.
They say hindsight is a vision
that can't be refused.
They say that when you love once
it's close to impossible
to love the same again, true views.
And the world is twisted up
while wickedly bent.
Yet again there you are in my memories mind.
There you are standing alongside me with love's bind.
It's so hard to forget it's so impossible
to put aside the magic that you gave me.
It's so hard to dream again
without you close by me.
It's so impossible to believe in the visions
that I no longer see.
But, again the spirit has
asked me to awaken.
The heart has bled long enough.
The pride has been mistaken,
and all the wrong words said.
I miss you dear love, I miss you,
dear friend. I hope you are beyond me,
despite my wishing, I'm not completely beyond you,
but in spirit I believe that hopefully soon,
I will be.
Goodbye, Lori.
